Everyone that wants to comment to my site have to register first. That is for a few reasons. In the first place I like to know who comments on my blog, after all this IS a personal blog. Secondly it filters out spammers a little bit all ready at fore hand. All comments that are being posted by my users are going through a spam filter. If the message passes the spam filter It will still not be posted to the blog automatically. I manually have to approve each and every comment on my blog. This so hateful and stupid comments won’t even make it to public and you wont be bothered by it and for me its easier to see all my new comments at one glance, and I am glad I have decided to do this because the number of spam bots registering to my site are enormous. The number of spam messages are large too and multiple by same registered users often. Most of those spammers that constantly try to spam my blog with unwanted and unasked for comments about Viagra, Weight loss products an other nonsense I simply block.
Since the number of registered users has grown so enormously that today I have started to clean up my users list on my blog site. What does that mean? It means I am simple one by one manually removing removing registered users that I suspect to be registered by bots. Spam bots are these called. Many of those I have all ready deleted but now I will try to get rid of all of them.
The reason why I am informing u, my user of this is simple. I am human and therefore I make mistakes. It may so happen that by accident I don’t recognize you as a person and delete you. I hope you will not hold that against me and come back to my blog. The removal is just that, removal and not a block so you can easily return and re-register. That’s all! Thank you.
Although I haven’t blogged about it in long, I still bake n decorate cakes. With everything going on at the moment, I am getting some help tho. I still do all the planning, organizing n baking myself. Most of the cake decorating too but Antonio helps me out where I lose my patience with it. I think one of my favorite cakes we made this year so far has got to be the minion cake I made for my friends daughter her birthday.
Just love that silly look on its face!
I installed this app that allows me to blog from my phone, because I kinda do miss blogging sometimes when I am out there and shooting some pictures. However I must be doing something wrong and had to retype the whole thing again directly onto the site. I am doing that on my phone too but its just not as simple as that app.
Today I went with the classroom of my youngest to a museum. Lackvof internet keept me from sharing it right away and also I have to watch the kids n help out with them. So I wouldn’t be able to blog just then and there. It was a fun day. I did not made a lot of pictures but I do want to share some of them. The picture right here below show the cellars where now the wardrobe and the toilets where located. I thought that picture shows some of the charm of mystery of long ago times n let me to wonder all the things that have happened and have been said there.
The roof was like a giant glass ceiling with little lights in it. More or less looking like a spiderweb.
I walked up to the middle of the courtyard and that view was just amazing.. Just imagine being there at night with a dark n clear sky with a million stars.
I wanted to keep my blog up to date kinda and decided to upload the pictures of my weekend away on 19- 21 september.
For a while I had been thinking to just go a weekend away on my own to put some thoughts in my head at ease and relax and last but not least have a nice stress free weekend. The problem was where was I going to spend that weekend at. I did not wanted to trigger memories that would stress me so certain areas where just off limits. One place where I have not been and where I liked to go was Scheveningen. Its a town at the coast of Holland directly at the Sea. Naturally I wanted to have a nice luxury hotel directly or very close to the beach since i have no other transportation then public transportation and my own legs. After checking websites for a week or so I came to conclusion that Scheveningen was just going to be too expensive, especially because the hotel I had let my eye fall on was top notch. Nothing wrong with that except that I didnt wnated to trigger any feelings of guilt neither.. because that would stress me out too.. And the plan was to relax.
So after some more browsing and surfing and a few days thinking I decided to go to Egmond aan zee . Hotel Zuiderduin is a 4 star hotel with a pool, wellness center, and nearby the beach. Breakfast was included and it was very affordable. My double room had a bath and shower and was on the second floor. Unfortunately my view was the parking lot. Oh well, can’t have it all right?
My weekend was awesome. The weather was great and I enjoyed my time away a lot. Sure, I missed the family at home but we talked online in the evening with video chat so that was taken care of as well. Dining alone was a little bit odd so the first evening I ate a pancake at a terrace directly at the beach. It tasted marvelous with a glass of whine and the view, my first evening went well. Back at the hotel I took a nice long bath n read my book, scrubbed my skin and put on a face mask. After my own little wellness evening I was like reborn.. I sleep well and the very next morning I got up at 9, took the time to wake up and get dressed to go downstairs for breakfast.
The breakfast was ok but after the amazing breakfast we had in the 5 star hotel Kapinsky in Budapest it seemed a tat poor. That was however a price winning breakfast in international competition, so really, I was spoiled there with that and to compare them was a little bit unfair. However it did tasted well and after breakfast I went back to my room to get ready to spend a day outdoors, walking the beach, making lots of pictures of the sea and the lighthouse and visiting the little town where I was staying. After a wonderful sunny day I decided to have a real diner in a nice restaurant this time. Restaurant La chatelaine in Egmond aan zee I would really recommend if you ever may visit that town.
I went checking out all the restaurants and went to small and cozy restaurant where they served a very fine steak with again a nice glass of whine. I skipped dessert and after a short walk on the beach I went back to the hotel and had some video chat with little one and hubby. Not too long because again I created a wellness evening for myself with reading a book in bath, scrubbing my skin and a nice face mask again. After reading some more in bed I went to sleep. This time I did not sleep very well and I was glad when the morning came. Another nice breakfast before I checked out and a walk on the beach. This last day, sunday the wind was a little stronger and the waves a lot higher. I saw people kite surfing today which was kinda cool.
When my ears where cold from the wind, I walked back to the town and after buying something I had seen the day before I went back to the hotel to pick up my suitcase. And like 1 and a half hour later I was back home again in Amsterdam.
Many times I can not even talk to my best friends and family about things that are happening or have been happening in my life, simply because it will change their view on people and that includes myself. Not because I am ashamed of them or because they are secrets. I’m hiding things and keeping things to myself because others are involved in these things and that I am not sure they can understand them. To be judged because of those things by people that don’t understand the impact of these things on my life or others life’s is not something I seek for either.. It makes one feel very lonely not being able to be who you are because you want to and even have to protect yourself and others. A simply and sincere how are you doing, I often can not answer honestly for this reason.. Its a difficult choice to make because it feels like betrayal not to be honest and which makes it also hard to be real friends or close to people. So I most times keep a distance just so I don’t have to lie. One reason why I can not always blog when I wish I could and why I have not blogged for a long time. Since my blog is for me to express myself which I feel often blocked in. Either by myself, circumstances, friends or family.